“He didn’t mean to do it,”
I explain in his defense.
“It only happened once,
And it won’t happen again.”
He told me that he’s sorry
But his fist disagrees.
He told me that he loves me,
But I’m a fool to believe.
I spend hours in my room
Trying to mask the scars,
But I cannot hide the pain
In my eyes and in my heart.
A life full of excuses,
Fear and pain buried deep.
And now I’ve become the girl
I never wanted to be.
He didn’t mean to do it,
But I know he’ll do it again.
Once or a thousand times,
I should have left him then.
Instead, I suffer in silence,
Unwilling to admit the truth,
That he is no longer
The man I thought I knew.
© Lily — 12/12/12
Side note: This poem is not about me. I know most poets write about things that are affecting them, but I tend to do the opposite. I hope this poem isn’t offensive in any way. May those people going through a similar situation find the strength and courage to save themselves.
~Don't Quote Lily~ 
Powerful stuff here, Lily. THRILLED to know this is not about a personal experience.
Thanks Tori. I wanted to make sure my mom knew this wasn’t about me. But sadly, it happens all too often. 😦
Unfortunately there are many women out there living that nightmare.
Sadly, yes, it’s an unfortunate reality.
Good job, Lily. You expressed this well, even though it’s (thankfully) not your own experience. So glad you told us it’s not you, because your mom wouldn’t have been the only one to worry. 🙂 Rani
Thanks Rani. I tried. And yup, I definitely didn’t want anyone to worry. 😉
Beautifully written, especially since it came from your heart without having been through something like that yourself. Though I myself have never experienced such horror, there are many who will relate on a deeper level to this post. Good of you to share.
Thank you. 😉 Sadly, I’m sure many do relate. I probably have no right to write such things, but oh well… I write what I feel/think, even if the feelings aren’t my own.
For not having gone through something like this personally, you were still able to evoke a lot of emotion about such a delicate issue. Very powerful.
Thank you, I’m glad it came out okay. I just feel for those who live that situation every day.
Deep stuff
Thanks Boomie.
You had me worried for a minute there, Lily! So glad this isn’t about you, but unfortunately it is about a lot of women. I love the power of your writing…
Good thing I added a disclaimer, right? Yup, sadly, this is a hard truth for too many women. 😦 Glad you enjoyed the poem though. 😉
This is so deep and such a reality for so many women out there that it’s extremely sad. Though we both never have lived it & I hope we never know of this in our lives. It totally destroys a women’s spirit & essence when she becomes a victim of domestic abuse.
Well done as always ur writing is amazing & I love u more then words can express.
Exactly, sadly too many women live this and don’t make it through.
Thanks mom, glad you liked it. Love you too!
I got a little worried when I saw the title but I’m glad I read through all of it (including the disclaimer). You’re right that this kind of thing happens much too often and I’m really impressed at how you handled it!
Happens much too often, sadly. Thanks for reading. 😉
Great poem Lily.
Thank you!
For never having experienced it, I think you captured the essence of what it is to go through something like that. Well done.
(P.S. Just wondering . . . I see you are on WordPress. Is there a reason you don’t have the option to “notify me of responses” for your posts?).
Thanks Misty. Hm, I will have to take a look because I thought that was an option, to “notify me of responses.” Swear it used to be there! 😉
Wow, that was so good. We have started writing poems on our blog 🙂 Ours arn’t that good as we have just started. Popped over from LLCD xxx00xx
Mollie and Alfie
Another blog, very cool, will check it out when I can. And thanks! 😉
Hey there Lily, I’ve been enjoying reading your post so much because their always so crazy and funny in a inspiring way, so I’m passing my Very Inspiring Blogger Award to you! Check it out when you have time and Happy Holidays! 🙂 http://artisticmilestone.wordpress.com/2012/12/15/421/
Thanks so much, I appreciate it. Happy Holidays!
You’ve tackled a taboo. Subject for many people. Well done. This is a powerful poem you’ve written
Things like that happen all the time. if only we could face it and try and put a stop, much lives would be happier. Glad you posted it Lily. Many will be able to relate to it.
-Asha
Thanks Asha! I do hope women start speaking up more…we deserve much better than to be treated that way!
Absolutely true, Lily!