What Was I Gonna Say?

Did you know that you can start to feel old at the ripe old age of 22? In a few months, I’ll be 25, but I feel like I’m going on 50. I know, I know, you want to tell me to shut my pie hole and be happy that I’m still in my twenties. I know I’m young, but I don’t feel as sharp as I used to. And if I’m feeling that way now, what hope is there for when I’m actually old? Okay, pipe down, I’m not calling anyone old. Age is just a number, and it’s all about how you feel. But if it’s all about how you feel…I feel old. Okay, go on, I know you’re rolling your eyes at me.

I’ve noticed little things here and there that make me feel…age-challenged. (I’m trying not to say old.) I know it’s perfectly normal to walk into a room and forget what you were looking for. (Right?) That happens to everyone at some point. Is it also perfectly normal to have a question for someone, but when you walk up to them two seconds later, you can’t even remember your own name?* Is it normal for this to happen very, very frequently?

I used to pride myself on my ability to memorize song lyrics incredibly fast. I had hundreds of songs in my head, and I’d never mess up a single word. Of course, that was then. This is now, and now I find that I’m forgetting bits and pieces of songs that were supposed to be stored in my head for all eternity. I know this isn’t such a big deal, but for me, it’s a sign that my brain cells are falling out of my head. And the fact that I just said they’re falling out of my head proves that I’m a frickin’ moron.

I’m sure I’m not the only one, but I actually find myself wondering how I got such good grades in school. I think we’ve all forgotten some of the things that were drilled into our heads back in school, but sometimes I feel like I’ve forgotten everything. Okay, I still know that 1 + 1 = 11.** But for the life of me, I can’t remember anything about long division, or anything I learned about Science or History…especially History. English class is the only one that stuck, and that’s because I use English skills every day. See this blog post I’m writing? I’ve got mad skills.

almost want to go back to school just so I can put my brain cells to work. (Lazy bastards.) I hate that I can barely do math in my head, and that I find myself forgetting things more often than usual. I can figuratively feel my brain cells dropping like flies. (I can’t say literally because I literally can’t feel that, but…yeah.) Do any of you feel this way? Can you feel yourself heading towards stupid-ville with every passing day? Or do you think I’m a loser, and that maybe I should have kept this to myself, rather than pour my aging heart out to the whole wide blog world? I guess poor judgment is another one of my age-challenged symptons. I think I’ll go take a nap now. The computer screen is hurting my youthful eyes. Sigh…

*This post may or may not be a slight exaggeration.

**This was a joke. You do know that, right? Of course 1 + 1 = 3. Duuuhhh. (No, seriously, I know the answer is 2.)


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  1. I can relate to feeling old lol. Even though I’m 2 years younger than you. when I speak to my younger friends I feel like “wow they must think I’m ancient” but at the same time I’m not sure if I want to go back to being a teenager. Not that I didn’t necessarily like myself back then. I know that I’ve changed, but I wouldn’t be gaining a lot of life experiences. Also I agree after getting out of school I feel like I want to go back now because my brain cells were put to use. It’s an interesting thing when you think about it lol. Great post Lily! Are you doing anything for the long weekend?

    1. Oh good, I’m glad I’m not the only one in my twenties who feels this way! Na, I don’t want to be a teenager either. I just want to stop at 25 and stay that age forever. Not too much to ask, right? And not lose any more brain cells. They need to stay IN my head, LOL. Anyway, thanks for reading. I actually don’t have a long weekend, so way to rub it in! Just gonna relax and hope it won’t fly by! How about you?

  2. I turn 25 in June and know exactly what you’re talking about. And it’s gotten even worse since I had my baby in November. I have the feeling I even feel older than you, given that I have been in a relationship with the same guy for over a decade (it’ll be 11 years in September) and I have been married for almost five years. It is so weird some days to think “Oh my gosh…I am a wife and a mother!” Good luck! Us oldies have to hold into our youth while we can. 😉

    1. Hey, my birthday’s in June too! 🙂 Oh, I’m sure you’re feeling older now that you’re a mom! I’ve actually been with my boyfriend almost a decade too…and just saying that makes me feel old for some reason, lol. So I feel you! I honestly can’t picture being 30. I know that’s not old but it just sounds so wrong, haha. Good luck to you as well and congrats on the baby. 🙂

  3. I’ll just get on my walking frame and head off now 😀

    Everyone forgets things when they walk through doors, Lily. There’s even been some kind of study done on it. When I forget something hubby say’s, ‘did you just walk through a door?’ ‘YEP’, I say. We’re all aging, don’t forget to enjoy it! 😉

    1. Hehe. 😉
      Oh, I know we all forget things as we walk through doors. But it’s happening more often, forgetfulness in general. Ahhh! But you’re right, have to enjoy life while we can, it’s too short! 🙂

  4. I’ve been saying it for a while that it all goes downhill after you turn 21. At 18, I don’t think i really knew what “tired” meant. I thought I did, but it wasn’t until I hit 21 that I was like, holy hell what are kids these days doing?? Hahaha great post, Lily. I’m sure brain cells just take some firing up for them to get up and running again……. hopefully. 😉

    1. Agreed! We have no idea at 18. So…I’m not the only one who goes to bed at like 9…in my frickin’ twenties? Lol. Being a grown-up is exhausting! But yeah, I seriously need to figure out a way to stimulate my brain cells. 😀

  5. Maybe brain cells do fall out of our heads, through our ears, whilst we sleep? It’s possible, I’m sure. As far as maths is concerned, why would be expected to remember that if we have cell phones with calculators on them. If it makes you feel any better, a friend of mine forgot her husbands name at her wedding 😀 I had to go and whisper it in her ear.

    1. Hm, good point, maybe they do fall out. Or maybe brain cells jump to their death from embarrassment, lol. I know we don’t NEED to be able to do math in our heads, but I’d like to be able to now and then. Sometimes I feel like I’m being judged if I whip out my phone calculator, lol. Omg, she forgot his name! Too funny. Surely she was just super nervous. 😉

  6. I still have faith in you, because you still know the correct use of “literally.” There’s so much fun ahead, because now every half-decade, you have epiphanies. One at 25, one at 30, one at 35– that’s how it’s worked for me anyway. I kind of would like to hurry up the 40 epiphany because I need to know what to do next now, not two years from now.
    If you want to blow people’s minds, you can say an absolutely true statement: 1+1=10 (in binary numbers) 😉

    1. Don’t you hate how people abuse the word literally? Hm, I’ve never had an epiphany so that might be fun! Lol. Thanks. I guess it’ll be okay. If I were you, I wouldn’t rush 40 though, lol. AHH, binary numbers! I used to understand them. Now? 😦 Not so much. Stupid brain cells. 😉

  7. Well, I’ll say this, in my MIND I feel like I’m still 25. Granted, my mind can’t remember where I was going with this comment but…huh? what was I saying? Who are you again? (see, it gets better as you age, Lily! no worries!)

  8. Ha ha. I hear you. I mentioned forgetting stuff to my doctor (now THAT makes you feel both old and kinda hypochondriac-ish) and her response was to think of your brain as a computer, the more you put in it the more memory you use, so eventually it just starts dumping the unimportant stuff because we’re inundated with stimuli constantly. Yeah, it didn’t make me feel better…just made me think it was time for an upgrade. Hope they make one. However, when they do, I won’t remember I’ll need it anyway! So maybe this is win-win… 🙂

    1. What! Your doctor’s reply totally doesn’t help the situation…lol. Don’t you wish we could add a few GB more of memory to our brains? Who knows, technology is so crazy, that maybe some day that’ll be possible. But til then…wait…what was I saying? 😉

  9. Oh, Lils. I am 28. I am practically DEAD. I had an argument with my boss the other day because he claimed to have told me something, and I categorically denied it over and over again… and do you know what? He only bloody DID tell me that thing. I just had no recollection of it whatsoever. I mean, seriously no recollection. I think I’ll just have a cup of hot milk and go to bed…

    1. Oh gosh, you’re old. JUST KIDDING! Yeah, people keep telling me it’s normal to forget things so I’ll tell you the same thing…it’s normal. No worries. Feel better? Neither do I…lol. Hot milk sounds good though… 😉

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