I’m such a bitch. How’s that for an opening line? Actually, that was a little harsh. Allow me to explain myself. My boyfriend’s seasonal job ended last week, so now he’s home…all the time. Do you know what that does to a blogger? There’s no more ME time, like, EVER. I know I could just ignore him and go about my day like I always do, but it’s not the same. He’s very difficult to ignore. *Sigh* I feel like a bitch for feeling that way. I love my boyfriend with all my heart, and I’m so grateful to have him in my life. But man, it’s so nice when you get a little time to miss each other.
It’s not all my boyfriend’s fault, although it IS hard to focus when someone is constantly in your way. I’ve been getting writer’s block more often than usual…too often. Then I think that I’m letting you guys down and that just makes me feel worse. Some people started following me because they thought I was funny. Others because they enjoy reading poetry. And some may have followed me because I give excellent relationship advice. That last one is a crock of shit might not be true. So naturally, if I’m not funny, I feel like the “Funny Followers” will leave me, and if I don’t post a poem, I feel like the “Poetry Followers” will leave me. SO. MUCH. PRESSURE.
I never used to write “real” posts. By “real” posts, I mean posts like this, where I just bore you talk. Now that’s all I do. I don’t think that’s a bad thing, but my blog has definitely changed since the beginning. You could say I’m extremely random or terribly unfocused. Does my inconsistency make me a bad blogger? Is it terrible that sometimes I don’t figure out the point of my post until I’m halfway through it? When I first joined WordPress, I had no idea what I wanted to get out of this. Truthfully, I started it on a whim. It’s been six months and I still don’t know what I’m doing, but I’m glad that I can share my thoughts, even the really silly ones. I’m glad to have an outlet where I am free to express myself without being judged. (Or are you judging me right now?) I’m glad to have met such lovely people who are strangers and friends all at the same time. Blogging has been a lovely journey so far. I don’t know in which direction it will take me, or if I’ll find myself at a dead end, but I plan to enjoy the ride, bumps and all.
P.S. I have reached the end of this post and I still don’t know if I made a point. My fingers were typing and possibly making words that may or may not have made sense. However, my brain played no part in this writing process. It apologizes.